So I haven’t been around much since last year.
Christmas isn’t my favourite time of year by any stretch of the imagination; in fact generally speaking it makes me depressed and miserable, and has done ever since I was a young child — hence my choice not to celebrate the holiday now that I’m an adult.
I’m antisocial and care about very little over the Christmas period, for the most part I’m just trying to make it through without feeling an overwhelming urge to opt out of life entirely.
New Years’ used to be my saving grace, once Christmas is over and done with I feel like I can breathe and go outside a little more, and by NYE I’m feeling more in the mood to spend time with others.
However New Years 2023 was by far — by an entire marathon around the globe — the worst NY I have ever had.
It’s resulted in my entire life falling to pieces on an incredibly literal level, I have been traumatised and pushed back into depression very heavily and it’s making me question every choice and aspect of my life — whether the life I’ve created for myself over the past decade is the life I want to live going forward, or whether it’s time to move on in a new and different direction.
I’m going through a lot of emotions right now and it’s keeping my headspace at aggressively overwhelmed; I have a crazy amount of decisions to make and time is of the essence.
There will be more updates as the situation unfolds however the specifics are nobody’s business but mine — so respect that before you start asking “what happened?”
Yorumlar